Chutes & Ladders

This classic childhood game is so illustrative of how life can play out. Remember playing when you were a kid? I couldn’t stand hitting the chutes, it took me away from my goal of winning. When I’d land on a ladder, I would get all excited to climb up and get ahead of everyone else. However, we never know when there is going to be a chute or a ladder. I lost my husband over 30 feet, those 30 feet came from falling off a ladder; no chute was there to break his fall. He didn’t get to enjoy an easy ride down a slide and work all over again to climb his way back up to the top.

Since Zed’s fall I’ve climbed a little and I’ve slide down a lot. The last four months have been mostly climbing and learning to be happy with all that I have in my life. Some days are tough, I miss Zed, I cry over the pain from QJ or the stress of raising 3 kids sends me down a little chute. However, most I the time I’m ok.

I’m continuing to climb back up the ladder. Unfortunately I’ve hit another chute. I’m no longer seeing the guy I’ve been seeing for the last couple of months. It makes me sad, he has been a part of my life for a while but sometimes it just doesn’t work. I hope that we will be able to remain friends. It may take some time though.

I’ll start the climb again tomorrow. Tonight I’ll hang out at the bottom.

Love,
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6 thoughts on “Chutes & Ladders

  1. Sounds like maybe you were a little serious about this one. It’s hard to lose someone like that, don’t turn away too soon.

    1. Thanks for your kind words, but sometimes things happen that can never be taken back. Forgiving is one thing but continuing a bad relationship isn’t good for anyone involved.

  2. I know you have climbed fast and hard. Then, when you slide down, it goes fast and the ground seems harder each time. It’s the sliding that makes us stronger and more excited to make it to the top of the next ladder. Keep climbing, and I will be right behind you!

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